crazy love

It's been a busy summer. A few camps and trips have kept me pretty busy... or at least away from my "normal" life. One thing that I regret is that it has taken me all summer to read one book. I'm terrible!

Well, I finished it today. "crazy love" by Francis Chan. At first I didn't want to read it, simply because everyone was. There are some books that just aren't that good, yet everyone reads them because they are "it". I didn't want to be that guy. But I am... so i read it.

The biggest thing that screamed at me throughout the entire book was one question. "how would my life look differently if I was not a christian?" Sadly, I'm afraid it wouldn't look much different. I would hopefully have a full time job... but that's about it.

I am sad, and embarrassed, to say that I do not rely on God all that much. I have a decent job at a good church, I don't get a full time salary but I am paid plenty to live on since they are providing me with housing. I don't worry about food, water, money, anything... I don't go without. This is not because of Gods provision, its because my life is safe.

It leaves me asking what else I need to be doing. What do I need to give up more of? how can I be dependent on God daily? Who do I need to love more?